Morning sickness has hit me hard. It is actually all day sickness and no amount of crackers or protein or you-name-it will make it go away. Wearing Seabands has helped some, but most days it doesn’t matter. I’ve been spending a lot of time in bed or on the couch, looking at my bare walls that need decorating and house that needs cleaning. It is hard not to get really blue and have a pity party about it. There is a wonderful little reason that I going through all of this, and I am SO blessed to be a homemaker so that I can be at home during this time of nausea instead of having to go to work and suffer like many of my friends have.
Feeling overwhelmed has been my state of mind over the last several weeks. I have so many things that I’d like to get accomplished and things that desperately need to be done. Sadly however, most days I’m glad if I can get up and be dressed and have a few things done before my husband comes home. I’ve been sick a lot over the last several weeks and I tire easily. I feel like I am barely getting by, struggling to keep up running our home and all the things that go with it. I have felt like I’ve been neglecting my husband, he’s had to fend for himself and care for me so much lately. This a hard place for someone who likes to take care of everything herself to be in.
Having just moved into our new home, it makes me even more eager to get things how I want them. I was battling with morning/all day sickness while we were moving so only the bare essentials were unpacked.
Jacob has been such a trooper through all of this and I know he is looking forward to the end of the first trimester as much as I am. He has taken such good care of me and treated me like a queen and looked past all of the unfinished, untidy things around the house. I am very blessed to have him.
My mother has come to see me a few times and made me sit while she cleaned my house and cooked for me. That was such a blessing to me and to Jacob—I didn’t want her to leave! ;)
It is days (and weeks) like these that make me remember I can’t do it alone, that I must draw my strength from Him. I cling to verses like the ones below and encourage myself that this will pass and soon I’ll have a clean house again and eventually a baby in my arms and it will be all worth it.
Matthew11:28 (KJV)
Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.
Psalm 61:1-2 (KJV)
Hear my cry, O God; attend unto my prayer. From the end of the earth will I cry unto thee, when my heart is overwhelmed: lead me to the rock that is higher than I.
The first few months are always hard and seem so long when you are going through them! They do end. :)Don't feel bad about what isn't getting done or being taken care of- this is part of the "for better or worse". I think that just like we don't mind taking care of our husbands and children when they are ill, they are willing to do these things for us out of love,too.
ReplyDeleteI know just how you feel! I struggled with morning sickness, and migraines and it was all I could do to get dinner on the table every night, make sure we had clean clothes to wear, and some basic cleaning done. And mine kicked in a week and a half after I moved into our new home after our honeymoon. I'm not sure how pregnant moms with little ones do it....If it's encouraging though I started noticing periods of time with more energy and less nausea starting in the 11th week - I think it took till around 16 or 17 weeks before the nausea was gone, and the headaches backed off quite a bit at 20 weeks. Now at 23 weeks my biggest complaint is being tired.
ReplyDeleteIt gets better.....:-)
My heart goes out to you. I can see that your heart is in the right place and God will grant you the rest that you need. He never gives us more than we can bear.
ReplyDeleteI had terrible evening sickness with my first child. It is very hard. But know it will come to an end soon. All of your work will still be there when you have the strength for it again. I hope you feel better soon.
ReplyDeleteBlessings,
Amy Jo
Thank you all for the encouraging words! ;)
ReplyDeleteCongratulations!! So excited for you all! I know what it is like to not be able to do things, but someday it will only be a memory!! Take it easy! It sounds like you have a very understanding husband and that is a Huge blessing!! Blessings to you as you continue growing your precious little one!!!
ReplyDeleteHaving never been a mother yet, I can't truly understand the trial it brings but I will be keeping your family in my prayers. I hope you will feel stronger and happier soon! Blessings to you all. :)
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry it has been hard for you. I love your attitude and know the yuckies will be over soon. I'm praying!
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